My Lastest Months.

Hey guys! Whoa, it's been a long time, isn't it? Aaaaa~~ I miss writing here so much </3 Ah, anyway, how are you guys? I'm veeery well right now because I have a week holiday off ater mid-test! I'm at my house right now in Sidoarjo. Meet up with family is always incredible! >.<

Hmm... I have a lot of stories to tell you guys for these past two months.

D-1

Hello guys! How are you all? Guess what? Today is August 28th, and that meaaaaaaaaans.... my college-days will be started soon!! Oh my God, I'm really nervous at the moment. I have to meet lots of different people later, and have to study harder to reach my dreams! It's really sjhjdfjdfgbk. I even couldn't say how am I feeling right now. I'm really nervous but I am also really excited!

I'm gonna go to Jogja tomorrow morning. I will go there with my family: my dad, my mom, my sister, and two of my brothers. We will go there by car. And I hope the trip will be fun and won't take much time. I hope tomorrow won't be a traffic jam so we could arrive earlier.

Days before I Leave.

Hello guys how are you? Just a few weeks until I finally leave my hometown. You know, spending 18 years here in Sidoarjo, has given me so many good things, good people, good memories.... yeah, it's so hard for me to leave my hometown, remembering all of my family members live here. And I have to admit that I am kinda afraid to live alone at Jogja later >.< hehe~

This month, I've had so many great things (and bad things, of course, but the great things are more!) happened. Yup, I had good days when Ramadhan and Eid day came. I spent my days a lot with my whole family. I came over to their houses and had fun with them a lot: playing video games, playing badminton, and many things! They are so precious to me and really, it's so sad that I only have a few days until I really go to Jogja for 4 years. And what made me really happy is when my big family promised me to always visit me everytime they had holiday. It made me really happy! ^^

Dreams.

Hello, guys. How do you do lately? It's me again! I hope you won't be bored because of me xD
Ah, I'm gonna write some of my thoughts today. It's about faith--just like what the title means.

Do you guys ever had a dream? Well, I'm sure everyone have it. But do you guys have a dream that you really want to be true? to be reality? To be honest, yes, I do have dreams that I really want to achieve.

Anything Happened Lately...

Hello guys how are you? It's been a while for me for not posting here! Ah, anyway it's August already! It means that I'll go to college for not long after this! I'm so excited!!

Ah, anyway I'm not feeling better lately. I used to sleep above 1 am. And when I made this posting, it's almost midnight.

Well, I don't really understand why I have such a bad habit of sleeping. Some of my friends said that it's normal but some of them said that I'm too overthinking of something. And I guess, the last statement is almost correct for me.

There are some things that I want to share to you, guys. I'm kinda tired of my life. I had such a bad memories from someone that I thought was one of my good friend. Well, you know already that I like to have many friends even from the internet. I thought he's my good friend, we share a lot of things we like. He's younger than me, he's 15 years old. He's such an adorable lil brother.

I thought so before.

Best Friends

Hello, guys, how are you? Ah~ it's been a long time. I still have my holiday, and I'll enter my university on September. So it means I'll leave my hometown for about 1 month later. It makes me so nervous, because I'll live alone >_<


Ah, right now, I'm gonna write about friendship (again). Well, as the time goes by, I finally become more and more mature and understanding what is the best for me, and what is the worst. So does with people—friends.

We all know that the best people around us is our family—parents, sister, cousins... They are the best. They are always there when I need them the most—when the world ignores me. But then, we're back to our definition of human being—which is each human can't live without each other. Every humans need help from the others. So, that means that we—I—need to socialize outside.

I'm not that kind of people who get friends easily. I'm so shy, I don't talk much. Outside I'll be just like such a careless—mean girl. But inside, I actually watch; see everything. I know about A's gossips, I know about B's problems, but, I prefer to keep it by myself. 

My First Love, My First of Everything

As what as I promised on the lastest post, I'm gonna post another post today. Well, from the title you must be know what I'll write down here.

First love. I'm sure that anyone ever has their own first love. My friends said that first love is someone who has been your first boyfriend/girlfriend. But, I guess that's wrong. That's so wrong in my definition.

But then I found the definition of first love, which is so similar with what I thought :

Hello!!

Hello, guys!! Aaaaah~~ I miss this blog sooooo much! How are you, everyone? Are you okay? I'm so fine today. I had so many fun lately. Ah, anyway, do you know that I've already graduated from high school? Yes, I've graduated! It's kinda sad for me to leave high school. yeah, it's so irreplaceable. Even though only 3 years, but there were so much beautiful memories! Ah~ I want to cryyyy ;;------;; *take tissues* *snort*

this is my graduation medal :D

I'm also having a long holiday before I start to be a university student in Jogjakarta. I'm so excited! Meanwhile, this is what I'm doing during the holiday :

my book collections! Novels and comics!! :D

I love to read. I read everything, but mostly are novels and comics. Reading can change my whole mood for all of sudden. That's why. Do you like reading too, anyway? ^^

My university-things will be started around the end of August until the beginning of September. I can't wait for it. But honestly I'm kind of nervous because I will leave alone T^T


ah, anyway I'm gonna post another post today. just wait for it ^^

My Trip to Jogjakarta

Hello guys. Sorry for not posting this on time that I've promised. I'm too lazy to open my laptop lately. But anyway, now I'm gonna post my trip to Jogjakarta. Wow, have you ever heard about this beautiful city? The trip was great because I went with my family. Our main aim to go to Jogjakarta is to accompany me to register and do the enterance test into my future college, which is located there. And then, we went for a fun trip! I was so happy! ^^

Anyway, Jogjakarta is located near the Central Java, meanwhile my hometown is in Sidoarjo, East Java. My family and I went to Jogjakarta on Thursday (May 2nd) and we went back home to Sidoarjo on Saturday (May 4th). We went there by our car. The journey was quite long because of the far location (but not really, tho). We went from Sidoarjo at around 9-10 a.m and we arrived to Jogja at around 7-8 p.m. It was really tiring for always sitting in the car! >__<

this is my sister, on the way to Jogja

on the way~~ I forgot what place is this xDD

After we arrived at Jogja, we checked in to the hotel as soon as possible, because we were sooooo tired! (but I still had time to log in and play Pockie Ninja! xD)

The next day (May 3rd), my family and I went to MMTC (Multimedia Training Center University)--my next college! There, I did an interview test with the teacher there. In this college, I'm gonna take the Production Management study--which is I'll become a TV crew (I hope! xD) And you guys, the results have been announced (on May 7th) and my name's on it! I'm so happy!

After I took the test, we're going to have a lunch. Just info for you, guys, if you visit Jogja, you have to taste gudeg! Gudeg is sooooo delicious, it contains boiled egg, chicken, and the gudeg itself. This is the pic of it:

Happy (late) Birthday!

Hello, guyyyssssss how are you? I'm so sorry that I couldn't post here lately~~~
I was pretty busy (not really, tho).

Ah, anyway, Happy (late) birthday for meee~! Yay! I'm finally 18 years old! ah~ I'm quite old, eh? hahaha
By the way, I got so many presents from my family and my best friends~ take a look:

aaah so many otaku's stuffs, eh? >w<
I've got the K-On bags and pins from my mom and my sister~~~ I'm so happy!!
And I've got the Nike shoes from my mom and my dad ~~ 
and I've just got the Kuroko no Basket's mug, Sasori's action figure, and fairy tail keychain from my best friend, Reni~~ <33

and that wallet is from Vivi, my another best friend <333

aah~ maybe thats for now. I'll be back soon to write my trip in Jogjakarta! Just wait, okay, guys? ^^
Love from Dea :33

Performing Arts

Hello, guys. How are you? I hope you guys are fine in these last days of April. April has so much stories for me :) Anyway, today is April 27th, and tomorrow (April 28th), is my birthday. I'm so excited! I'll be 18 years old! Wow!!

Anyway, in D-1 of my birthday, my school held an event today. It was Performing Arts / Arts Festival (in Indonesia it's called by "PENSI"). What is that? Performing arts or Arts Festival is a yearly event of my school, nor for the other school in my country. As its name, this event contains so many arts performances, such as band, dance, vocal group, traditional dance, choir, even comedy drama. It was so much fun but also sooooooo tiring! >__<

This event was started at 7.30 a.m and over at 3.30 p.m! That was crazy, right? But what is crazier is.........the audiences -_- Please take a look:

This is when the show just started, around 7.40 am

and now, let's see the picture below:

Classmates

Hello, I'm back! Muahahahahaha *evil laugh* *wait, what?* *slapped*

Okay. Remembering that I am on a long holiday lately, seems like I'm gonna post so many things here. Ah, anyway, I'm quite sad because there will be a Cosplay event on April 28th......which is also my birthday! My birthday, I tell you! And do you know what the hell is the thing that makes me sad??? I CAN'T COME!!!! T^T my parents don't allow me to come T^T so meaaaaaaaaaaan T^T but I'm quite okay with it (readers: what the hell???) because they have bought me a new pair of shoes, so, yeah, my disappointment become less. aha aha aha~

Ah, anyway, do you remember that I'm in a final grade? Yeah, sometimes I really want to graduate soon but, yeah, remembering all of high school memories are such a pain for me. And sometimes I think, "I don't want my friends and I become apart."

Aw, what is that, Dea? well, that's my lovely class called 12 Multimedia 1. My classmates give name to it named MUNO (Multimedia Uno [re: uno = one in Spain]). It means that our class is always be the number one--either in our school or outside the school.

My class consist of 36 students, but unfortunately it was become 35 because one of them was dropped out from our school. My class has 13 boys and the rest are girls (include me, lol xD). Ah, about the boys, do you remember that I've posted about my them in my blog? (if you haven't read it just click this.) But, yeah, we finally realize that we're only humans. Differences always exist, but in the end we can't live without each other, right? :^)

Honestly, my class is awesome. I do really love my class a lot. I'm proud to be a part of them. We're cohesive, we have collected so many achievements and rewards from school until outside of school.
Here are the rewards that we've got so far:

National Exams

Hello, everybody! How are you? Sorry for not posting on this blog. I miss my blog so much~, and of course you too. teheee~ :D

Okay. You know guys, I've done my national exam on Thursday. And it's quite hard, but not really tho. I'm so hopeless on math. I'm really sucks at math T^T

You know, National Exam in my country is the important thing. Why? Here in Indonesia, the one that has the biggest effect of our graduation, is National Exam. Just imagine, we've studied in our school for 3 years but it all depends on 4 days only! That's a bit unfair for me, because our government only sees the National Exam's results for deciding the graduation.

As long as I study for 12 years, I've experienced 3 times of National Exams. My first was when I was on 6th grade (final grade of elementary school), and then when I was on 9th grade (final grade of junior high school), and now on the 12th grade (final grade of senior high school.)

the picture above is my table when I was done doing the exam on the last day (Thu/041813). It's kinda messy anyway xD

So, yeah. I just can hope that I can graduate with great scores and can enter my favorite university then ^^
okay. maybe that's all that I can write. I'm so sleepy +_+ bye and thanks for reading :)

Happy Birthday, Minsung.

Time just goes so fast, doesn't it? It's 2013 and it's also April already! And today, is a special day. Now, on April 7th, the greatest friend ever of mine, have a birthday! Yay, I'm so excited! 

Now in my country is 12 p.m, and meanwhile in US, is 12 a.m, so....
1...2...3!!

Happy Birthday, Minsung. 

I wish you would have great moments through this year.

I hope on your 18th birthday, you will have so many good chances to help you to reach your dreams.

I hope you'll stay just the way you are and have many good people around you.

Once again, Happy Birthday, Superman.

I'm so sorry that I can't greet you live to your face, I just wish that I could, but, you know, it's too far and I don't have time. But, anyway, you're 18 now. I hope everything's gonna run well in this year. I hope you can be more mature and wise to talk, to act, to give your opinions... everything! I hope you can be just the way you are. Just like that boy who wore that superman shirt, hehehe~~ ^^

Ah, I have a present for you:

just a friend-art (again), hehehe~ sorry that all I can do is just make this.

Ah, Minsung. You know what, I'm so excited about your birthday. And I even don't know why. I'm just so happy when I made you that drawing. I made that with all of my heart. And, I even made it so fast! >__<

Dear Minsung, I'm happy that I'm still healthy, so that I can greet you on your birthday (even though it's not face-to-face). I'm so happy that I could make you a drawing again as the present. I hope you won't get bored that I always give you the same present every year ^^;

Minsung, you know right that my birthday is also in this month? I am so excited. And I hope.... I hope... you could greet me too :')

So, yeah, I think that's a quite long birthday greeting, ahaha..

So...

Minsung, you know, I miss you so much. 'Till now. Until now.

But, yeah, it's up to you anyway. I hope you'll have a great day!

Once again, Happy Birthday, my Superman :)

boyfriend?

Hello guys how are you? I'm quite fine lately, eventhough the National Exam is getting closer each day. I'm lately addicted to an online game called Pockie Ninja, and I play it almost everyday because it's fun! I play it via facebook.You have to try it, too! I recommend you! :D  (p.s : if you join, you have to add my account and join my legion! :D /slapped/)

Ah, well, enough about the craziness! XD Well, you guys must be asking why do I give the title like that. Do you want to know why? Okay, I'll tell you now that :

I have a boyfriend.

AHAHAHAHA. Boyfriend, you said? YES! Boyfriend!

But, I'm not quite sure about this relationship. It's just flowing like water and voila, that is. We are having a long distance relationship. Our age are just separate a month. He born on March meanwhile I born on April. Our age are 18 (I'll be 18 next April).

But, I don't know. He said to his friend that we are already become a couple, but I still feel the same. I don't feel such a 'butterflies' in my stomach. I sometimes feel it, but the 'butterflies' are just a while, not like when I chatted with Minsung. I feel that so much of 'butterflies' in my stomach, but when I with my "boyfriend" I feel that........nothing special. He's special, but...not as special as my Minsung.

Today I thought that:
"What the hell is this feeling? I'm unsure about my own feeling. I don't know that I really like my "boyfriend" or am I just bored with my status?"

So, guys, what do you think about this? Can you give me some advice, please? 

Yay!

hello, guys! how are you? I am so happy today! Why?

I was awake on 3 a.m to do my praying. and after that I opened my facebook and my friends said that my team made it! we made it again to be one of 25 finalists on Digital Magazine competition the 7th! WOW I was am so happy!!

 

do you see that, guys? My teams' is on the 2nd, called Artmosphere Magz. Aaaaa and I have to do the presentation on March 16th! I am so nervous >___<

wish us luck!

"Happy Birthday," he said.

I found this little conversation on my inbox on fb. 

It's when he said happy birthday to me. It's been years ago, but I still smile when I read this. I miss you, Minsung. I hope you will greet me a happy birthday again this April.

I love you.

 

Dear Minsung,

Dear Minsung,

Hello, how are you? Are you doing fine there in New York? I hope, I hope you'll always be fine just like me here in Indonesia.

Hey, Minsung. Do you remember me? I am Dea, your friend in facebook. Yeah, maybe I was your friend, but, you are always be my friend, I mean, my best friend. Ah, I'm on 12th grade and it means that I'll go to the university this year! I am so excited! Are you too?

Anyway, I miss you so much. I mean it. I am missing you like a dumb.
I don't know how can I express this feeling. I've said this so many times, don't you remember?

Whenever I text you, even it's just a "good night message" or just a "hi," from me, it means that you are the one that I've been thinking of.

DO you know? When I type this post, it's midnight in my country. I can't sleep, Minsungie. I miss you so much. I am worried about you and I even don't know why.

Stupid? Me? Indeed.

I've stalked your blog too, Minsungie, Sometimes I'm so confused. You said that you want someone who cares about you, who miss you, who loves you just the way you are.

I do, Minsung. I do.

I.........I can't explain it why I become crazy about you. I just love you this much.
Am I not good enough?

Yes, I am not perfect, Minsungie. I hope, I hope you can open your eyes. Don't you remember what we've been in our 2 years?

I know we're just friends, but, it's okay. I just want to be with you, you know?

I miss our chats, even just by wall and inbox, and texts.
I miss the way you type my name.
I miss when you greet me a "Happy Birthday,"
I miss when you say to me, "...I hope our friendship will be last longer,"

I miss you, Minsung.
I miss you so much.

This may sounds stupid. But, this is me.
You may think I'm crazy. Go ahead.

I miss you so much. I wish you will response me.
I am sorry if I bother you. Please forgive me.


Lots of love,
Dea

Happy Valentine!

Hello, guys. Happy Valentine's Day.
How's your Valentine? Was it good? ^^

I don't celebrate it because I don't have a boyfriend smh -_- but it's okay. I'm a happy single, tho :p

I have a drawing for you, this is originally made by me. I hope you like ^^

Lots of love,
Dea

Love, eh?

Hi, everyone, how are you? I'm doing well lately, because my final project is over already and I can be focused on the National Exams. Oops, but, wait! It's not done! I have to do my other project which is making a digital magazine for National Digital Magazine Competition that will be happened on this last February. I hope my team and I can get the first winner of it for this year. wish me luck ~ :)

Ah, anyway, it's February. February, I tell you! And, it's almost.........Valentine's Day. Hahaha, do you know what am I thinking? Yeah, I'm single and I'm happy tho. But.....I still can move on from this friend-zoned condition.

You know, guys, I've been trapped in this kind of situation since two years ago. Two years! Two years, I tell you!

I've fallen in love with a boy who live in USA. And you all know, guys, that I live here in Indonesia. Such a dramatical(?) love story, eh? hahaha......

He left me all of sudden and I don't know what made him like that. He even didn't tell me what kind of reason that made him left me.

We were bestfriends. Um, no, we are bestfriends. I don't know, but sometimes I feel like...I fall in love with his kindness, care, jokes, all of it. Or maybe, just maybe, I fall in love with our friendship.

I love him. I do love him, and our friendship. I want to be his, but I don't want to lose the bonds that we've made so far. Why do I really love our friendship? I don't know. I just feel like he's the one who can understand me. He's the one that I can tolerate with. He's the one who make me believe that distance, time differences, and our other differences can't let our friendship broken. Even though he left me now, I don't know why I still believe in it. What should I do..............? T^T

I believe in him.

ajdhsakjfhksdhjkhfkh I love him so much.
I wish I can say this on "real-life", not by internet. I am still stalking his blog (but I won't tell you his blog's url :p).


Okay. Now I don't know how to continue this. Maybe I'll post the others on Valentine? Probably yes, because I don't have a valentine -_- hahaha.

Bye, everyone. Take care ^^

I Made It!! ^__^

Hello everybody! How are you guys?

I am very happy lately! I finally have finished my final projects' presentation and the result was veeeeery fine! I am really proud of my self. Even my 'tester' posted my products on his facebook ^^

So, have a good day, guys!

My Final Projects ~^^

Hello, guys! Um... I am gonna post some posts here today. And now, I'm gonna post about my final projects just like I've told you before~ ^^

 

Yup~~ These are my products. I made a story book and a comic. I gave them title : The Tale of Valere. It tells about the leader of this kingdom named Princess Vion. I drew it by myself, and it's originally made by me. I am very delightful and proud of my products. I enjoyed it a lot! ^^ 

I spent almost 2 months to make them. I spent almost of the time to make the comic, because each page needs 4-7 drawings, meanwhile for the story book, I spent time around 2-3 days! Crazy! >_<

However, I am proud, and I will always be. It's kinda sad for me because they should be given to my school T^T Well, that's not bad. I'll print them again someday for myself! hahaha :D

Okay, that's it for now. Gonna post somethings again today~~ 

Have a nice day, guys!

what I've done this month

Hello guys! Finally I can post here again! It's almost the end of January and I have had lots of experience!
Um... let's see..

Ah, remember about my final projects? Yup, finally I could finish it on time! yay!! >< I made a story book and a comic. It's so tiring but it's fun, too. I've spent almost of the days for making the comic, meanwhile my story book.........I finished it on a night! A night, I tell you! I worked on it on Sunday night, from 7 pm to 4 am. Crazy? It is! I used Photoshop as the software ~

Oh, yeah. I am also back to my previous 'area' or 'world' as an otaku! I finally realize that I belong there. I love anime and manga. They are my soul~~ xD I made a FF too, but it's still in Indonesian. check it out for Indonesian sasusaku lovers >> http://www.fanfiction.net/s/8881735/1/Our-World

Ah, anyway, I've learned how to vectoring photo. Um... it's not perfect anyway, but I guess it's not bad, too, eh? ehehehe. what do you think?

My first post at 2013!

Hello, guys, how are you doing? I miss this blog very much!! Ah, happy new year, anyway (so damn late, huh?). kekeke~ yup, now I am busy with my school as usual. Day by day, I really want to fuckin get out from my school. toooooooooooo many exams, annoying people, homeworks, projects, and many more! siggghhhsss.... I am very very tired! T__T

umm... I am quite busy with my final projects, I make a story book and a comic! ^^\\

anyway... i am so annoyed by people at school. Classmates, teachers.... ah! I am so annoyed with them. Idk why now I am used to keep a distance from people. sometimes I fell like I am an anti social or something...

but, i dont know ._. I just feel kinda different with them. I dont talk more, I do my works all alone, meanwhile they just copying this and that and blah blah blah... even for the final projects! aaahhh sometimes I feel like this is unfair! why?

I do all my projects all alone! meanwhile they just re-do the other people's works! I am annoyed!!

sorry if I bash too much. maybe I'll blog here tomorrow or the next days ^^

Sayounara~~