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Hello guys! How are you all? Guess what? Today is August 28th, and that meaaaaaaaaans.... my college-days will be started soon!! Oh my God, I'm really nervous at the moment. I have to meet lots of different people later, and have to study harder to reach my dreams! It's really sjhjdfjdfgbk. I even couldn't say how am I feeling right now. I'm really nervous but I am also really excited!

I'm gonna go to Jogja tomorrow morning. I will go there with my family: my dad, my mom, my sister, and two of my brothers. We will go there by car. And I hope the trip will be fun and won't take much time. I hope tomorrow won't be a traffic jam so we could arrive earlier.



Right a week before I really go to Jogja, I've spent so much time with those people that I love and care about. I've spent so much fun with my friends and family. I'm gonna miss them so much. T^T

I went to my high school a few days ago and met my classmates. We talked a lot of things especially our future education and dreams. But I think we spent so much time for talking non-sense and joking around and laughing together xD It's always fun to be with them, fooling around and talking about unnecessary things, making fun of the others... I really will miss them a lot. Especially, I will miss my deskmate for 3 years: Vivi.

I was hanging out with her yesterday. We went to cinema together. We watched Percy Jackson: The Sea of Monster. Finally I could watch it! I've been waiting for such a long time since the 1st movie released a few years ago. And now I finally could watch it...with my bestfriend! It was fun, and the movie was really epic! Really worth to wait! >.<

After we watched Percy Jackson, we went for lunch and talking about anything that happened to us lately. And I've just known that she already have a boyfriend. And her boyfriend lives so far away. He lives in USA! Wow! Just like Minsung xD hahaha. I never thought that my bestfriend will also have her soulmate abroad. She said to me that this kind of long-distance relationship is really hard. Moreover, the time difference really makes them hard to contact each other. The time difference between Indonesia and USA is 9 hours long. Can't imagine it how hard it is for them. But as long as they love each other, I guess, it makes it even easier. There'll always be a way, right? Ganbatte, Vivi! Hope her relationship will be long last.

Ah, anyway, have I told you that I already have a...soulmate? :3 haha~ Do you guys remember that I have someone that I like? Yes, he's now my boyfriend. I am really happy to have him. He really loves me just the way I do. And I don't know that having someone who loves us back is really.....awesome. You know, I always like someone who doesn't like me back. And now, I have someone who loves me back. I am really thankful of everything he has given to me. And, same as Vivi's case, having a soulmate abroad is really hard. But now, I'm trying to study harder and harder so I can continue my education there in his country. Not only that, if I pass it, I also have a chance to reach my dreams, just like what I've told you before. I love my Shiro-chan :3 I hope our relationship will be also long last, just the way we want it to be. ^^

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Ah, and anyway, I've decided to be just like this. Just like who I am. I won't change my personality just for being able to be with those famous people in the college. Well, to be honest, when I was in the middle school, I was a gloomy girl. I basicly just hated everyone, except my family and my good friends. I was really picky for friends. So that's why I didn't have so much friends like I do now. I was thinking that people are the same. And caring about others is such a lame thing. Because whenever I cared about someone, they always left for someone's better, famous, rich.. And I learned that the more you care of someone, you will get hurt a lot when they leave.

But then my mom said to me, that caring is a great thing. And she said that I'm actually a caring person. (lol). We have such an amazing feeling when we care about someone, about others. We will have many good people to be our shelter when we're down. We will have so many good people who will be there when you need them. Show them that you care, and they will care about you back. Just be yourself. Someone who loves and cares about the others will have a good people around them. And yes, people will find someone prettier, someone's famous, someone's better, but they will never be you. Never be me.

And that's it. I finally found my real-self. I am just being like this. I notice anything happens around me, and I can't just standing here, trying to be careless and do nothing. At least I have to do something useful for people around me. And it's surprising when I realized that I have those friends who also helped me whenever I need help.

And it's also surprising. My first love might not notice that I cared a lot about him three years ago. But now I found someone who cares about me, who always be there when I need him the most.

My mom is right. Maybe I didn't have lots of friends, but when I become myself, they just popped out and appeared and always be here with me no matter what. Maybe I didn't get my first love, but I now I have someone who really loves me back. My mom is right. Beautiful things need some times. And that's why I believe that my dreams will be come true. :)

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Ah, so.... I will be going tomorrow morning. I just wish that I still can post here since it'd be hard for me to find some free internet there xD but I'll post whenever I have time. And I swear I will post a long posting once I get here xD

Well, I hope you guys will be always in touch with me even if I lived far away. My friends, my family, and my soulmate is really important thing for me, and I dont want to lose them, and you guys.

Wish me well there. Wish I can reach my dreams there. Wish everything's gonna turn well just like it's supposed to be.

That's it for now. I'm gonna miss you guys!
Lots of love from me!!

Dea