Boys is BETTER than GIRLS? Think the fuck AGAIN.

hello everybody! how are you? ^^
today I was having a boring day. such a really boring day. wanna know why? let me write this down.

I was at class just like usual and then it just happened. My boys' classmates were saying something bad to us, the girls. they said that the girls are just talk talk and talk and just make problems. the boys don't want to be messed up with the girls and sooooooooooooo on.

and then we were fighting in the English lesson. me as the one who really love English just kept answering and answering to save my girls' classmates pride. we don't want to lose from those boys who are acting like they are good in everything. LMAO.

I just met this kind of guys who act like shit. honestly I love to make friends with guys but after this shit happens I will be careful and always try to save the girls' pride. me as the girl don't want to make such a idiot thing like those boys. LMAO I thought boys are more just like, "I don't care this. I don't want to be like this like that. I don't care. blah blah blah....."

and noooooooowwww I met this kind of weird situation. the girls are just look careless than the boys who act like they care and smart in everything LMAO.

Just see, boys, WE WILL WIN IN THE END.

argh!

hello guys how have you been lately? ^^ well, I had much fun this holiday even though just less than 2 weeks ^^

umm..... what should I write here now?
ah! yeah, I just want to share my thoughts just now TT
well, I will join to Try Out of State Accounting Institute on 26th. I join there just for measure my ability. just it. but you know, my mom..... she is so ambitious that I have to be there--on that institute.

but, I don't agree. I don't want.
I don't like maths, I don't like numbers. I love arts and languages, but my mom asks me to be on that accounting institute. TT

what should I do then guys? I don't want to break my mom's heart. but that kind of accounting things are not my ability and my interest..

so, what should I do? help? TT

what's up! ^^

nah, how are you guys? ^^ it's been a very looooooooooooooong time didn't post something here.. umm... well, lately I have some news that happened in these last three months.

#1 : June
In June I had some final semester exams to continue my grade into 12th grade ^^ whoa, it's very shocking because time just went so fast and next year I'm gonna graduate and continue my study to university ^^ hopefully I can go to Journalism / English Literature / or maybe graphic designs. Hopefully I can pass one of them tho :)

And yeah, do you guys remember that I've practicing for English competition (read my last post ^^)? Well, this was my first time to join in such a debate competition like that, and the result was not too bad tho.. Me and my team could reach the TOP 10 list in East Java's teams ^^ yay I was so happy ^^


#2 : July
This month I have already been in the 12th grade. 12th grade is just really really really tiring!! I had many kinds of homeworks and projects to do!! TT My 12th grade seems like will go so fast, remembering that the time or periods of this grade is just only for less than 8 months!! Oh, ya, and what makes me moooooore tired and depressed is that from January till June 2013, I'm gonna having never-ending-exams!! TT hueeeee~~~ so, guys, just wish me luck for this grade ~~ TvT


#3 : August
Still the same with the previous month, exams and projects are going mad... And, yeah, I haven't told you that since the end of July until the middle of August is a fasting month or we usually call it with Ramadhan. I dont know but I felt that Ramadhan this year is just moving fast TT

and.... I am now in a holiday ^^ maybe I could post many things here again ^^
but unfortunately these kind of works and projects are on deadline so it means that in holiday I can't completely rest well..~ I've been lately woke up in the midnight to do my projects TvT

well, maybe that's all for now, guys! I'm gonna write some things here soon!! ^^
take care and hope our days could shine brightly! ^^

p.s :
I've been lately online on twitter, I guess I've become addicted~ kkkkkkk XD
you can contact to my twitter too , tho ^^ 

what happened today

I was practicing for my English competition today, as usual. But, there's something weird today that I can't explain...

I don't know what a thing that I've been thinking of. I'm just worried and worried, but I don't know what am I worried about. It's confusing. Today actually I had a good day, but there's just something dark, something strange, weird, and I can't explain it why. I am confused.

do you guys know what kind of feeling is this? I've never felt this before. Help?

Today is SUPERB !

I was having a really really really good day ^^

My mood today was very down, until I got bored and I tried to text him~~ ^v^ *but actually I didn't really hope that he'll reply my msg~~

aaaand for an hour, suddenly my phone vibrated~
"hey" he said.
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa I was really haaaapy >///< then I replied it again with 'hello'
and then he replied "how are you?"
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and I was really haaaapppyyyy. and then I replied "fine. you?"
he said that he's fine too and he asked me "What are you doin?"
kyaaaaaaaaaaaa and and and I was just told what was I doing and then he asked me to send me my pic, but I couldn't bcs my pulse wasn't enough >///<"a and he didn't reply :(

well guys, you may thought that I am crazy or something but.... indeeeeeeed because I never imagined that he'll reply my text  and I thought he'll lost contact with me. but in fact, he replied it and that made my day!! >///<  ~~> yeah... you know how love can take our control ~ ><

okay thats all for now~
thanks for reading ! ^^

Hello !! ^^

annyeong, konnichiwa, hallo, hello guys !! ^^
it's been a veeeeeery long time not updating this blog. I was really busy at the moment because I'm gonna have a final exam in the end of this month T__T

anyway, I join in an English competition next June and I hope I can pass it and will bring any achievements to my school. Wish me luck ^^

anyway I've been so tired because of my school life. It's just forced me to finish all the works and projects, especially I am a vocational high school student, I've been tired so much more. my academic subjects like maths, science, etc... and my productive subjects like making movies, animations, graphic designs... are so many to count! Aaah... I even don't have enough time to take a rest :(

well, honestly, I really can't take it. so hopeless. so tiring. everything's just tiring. I don't know... is my school is kind of too much forcing their students? because, in my sight, I think that the teachers in my school are always giving maaaany works everyday. meanwhile in my country, there's no holiday on Saturday. I do really not have enough time to relax my body and mind.. are you the same like me?

hmm.... well, actually there are so much that I want to share my last experiences in the last four months. but I am a kind of forget about what I've been done >< kkkk~~~

ah! right now I really miss my old friend. I miss him so much right now. seems like I want to text him but he already decided that he wants to lost contact with me :'(

so... well, maybe that's all that I can write right now here ^^
wish me luck for everything
God bless you and keep in touch!!

SHINee WON!!

and I'm just like

and then become ...

and ...

well, SHINee, you're the best! ^^

Feelings of A Fangirl

"...I always want to be the part of these beautiful oceans..."

my friends know that I am a big fan of SHINee and Super Junior since a long time ago. I heard that Super Junior will be held a Super Show 4 Indonesia and SHINee will also join the Music Bank World Tour. My friends asked me when will those concerts be held. I said that SHINee's will be on May 2012 and... SS4 Indonesia.... will be on April 28th - 29th 2012. You know, April 28th is my birthday. That's what makes me really sad.

They said that I CAN'T prove myself as a fans. Well, I am really mad and super upset and angry about what they said.

I asked to my parents if I could watch them but as what I've expected, they refused.
I am not a lucky fangirl because I don't have enough money to buy the ticket. I know that maybe these concert will be my last chance but... yeah, I guess... I really can't watch them LIVE by myself.

My friends laugh at me, and unfortunately I can't deny their laugh.
Well, maybe I AM too hyper of being a fangirl but.. I don't know. I just feel a kind of joy that I can't find it anywhere. I am PROUD of being a fangirl; even though I can't be a part of those oceans in the concert.

I am proud of being a SHAWOL. 
I am proud of being an ELF.

I believe that someday I can be there, too.
Soon.

Between Us

I was thinking. Yeah, thinking the same person, over and over again.
I know it sounds crazy but, yeah, I admit it.

I admit it that I loved—no. I do love him.

I am a type of person that hard to forget someone's mistakes. Well, maybe it sounds selfish but the mistakes that I meant is when the person did the same mistakes over and over again to me. I was trying to avoid him, to leave him, to knock him down but in the end—I forgave him.

"Whoa that's so kind of you," well, guys, maybe you can say so. But the reason is... I love him too much.
Well, sounds silly but I admit it. 

He has apologized to me and deep inside my heart, I still couldn't forgive him. But... I don't know why I could say this in the end, "That's alright. We're friends, right?"

He said that he knew that I don't want to lose him. And how surprised I was when he said,

"...and, I want to make your feelings bigger,"

Damn! Those butterflies came again to my stomach. I couldn't deny it.. I couldn't refuse those kind of feelings anymore. It's still the same. It's still the same just like the first time I like him.

Now, he already has a girlfriend. Sometimes the jealous feelings come to me, but, I have to accept it and now I'm okay with it. I have no problem about it.

Well, I hope I can say this to him someday, that I really love him. But I just can't.
I am afraid of rejection, and now isn't a good time to say this.

I hope, me and him won't fight anymore.

I love him—and I always will.

Is that called a friend??

There's a friend of mine, and he's a boy. I've just too tired of him.

Doesn't he remember who's the one who always be there for him when he's damn suffering?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always take care of him?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always run and run just only to meet him?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always be there when he wants to share his damn problems?

Now he has a girlfriend and seems like he doesn't care anymore about me. Well, maybe you guys think that I'm too arrogant but... argh I don't know..

He's now in the last grade and he'll graduate this year. I know that he's now busy with the last school works and--his girlfriend of course. I've texted him a few days ago and I said that I miss him. He said that he missed me too and I said that he seemed so far from me and you know what? he didn't give me a reply.

He never online on twitter these days, and... yeah I thought that he's busy. but suddenly when I opened my facebook home......

DAMN!!!

almost of the statuses there were HIS! holy! is that what you called 'busy'???

and... sorry guys if I seemed arrogant, but as a friend, I want him to care about me like I always do. I'm not jealous or anything to his girlfriend but ... well, at least, I'm (or should I say I was?) his friend. his best friend. holy! now I don't know what am I supposed to do.

He said that he trusted me. but the fact? he trusted me only for his sadness! But when he's happy, LOL he even never notice me.

for God's sake, I hate him very much.
fri(end)

so sad of me

hello guys ^^ how are you? it's been a long time (not really, tho) for me not update this blog TT

I had such tiring days a few days ago. but what made me so tired and sad are...

• there are some rumors that Super Show 4 will be held in my country (Indonesia)
• MBLAQ, Sistar, and Boyfriend also will held a concert in my country
• and there are some rumors that KBS Music Bank World Tour will visit Indonesia too. my friends said that the artists that will come to that event are SNSD, F(x), U-Kiss, MBLAQ, T-Ara, and SHINee!

 I know you guys kinda confused about this. I should be happy, right? but... you know.. it's kinda impossible for me to watch them. even though I live in Indonesia, but I live in a city which kinda far from Jakarta. and I don't have any money to watch them. so poor of me TT

well, maybe I am not a lucky fangirl. all that I can do is only pray and believe that I'll meet, watch, and see them. I hope.. yeah, I hope.. soon.

MY NEW FANFICTION PROJECT!

my upcoming FF titled "A Chance to Change" will be released this month and now I'm still on my way to do it ^^

As what you can see on the pic, the casts are Lee Taemin, Park Jiyeon, and Choi Minho.

I'll make this FF into two different languages (Indonesian and English). For the Indonesian one, I'll post it on my facebook account and the English one, I'll post it here and in my tumblr. ^^

This week will be so tiring for me

It seems like I'll get so many homeworks this week. Holy! I got physics homeworks, arts homeworks, English homeworks, Deutcsh homeworks, and the most horrible one.... MATH EXAM ON FRIDAY!!

Hooooooly! waeee? TT
but I hope for my best laa~ wish me luck!

cheers from me ^^

oh shit

today I had a really bad day. I got a bad mood. a really bad mood!!

pleeeeeease! I wanna kick someone today! TT

Bored

I have nothing to do today. what a boring weekend.
anyway, I haven't told you about me ^^

so, my name is Dea. I have a pen-name (deahikari) and I love that name. I come from Indonesia, and I'll be 17 this year ^^
My hobbies are photography, reading, blogging, watching movies, listening to music, writing some stories, drawing manga, etc. I have many blogs that you can follow. But what I usually update are smpivsdaarni , this blog and deahikari on tumblr. feel free for you guys to contact me on those blogs or you can contact me trough my social networks accounts ^^

hello!

hello guys! this is my newest blog ^^

I was decided to make a blog with my 2nd name (deahikari). but my previous blog (smpivdaarni), I still update it ^^ well, happy reading !