Feelings of A Fangirl

"...I always want to be the part of these beautiful oceans..."

my friends know that I am a big fan of SHINee and Super Junior since a long time ago. I heard that Super Junior will be held a Super Show 4 Indonesia and SHINee will also join the Music Bank World Tour. My friends asked me when will those concerts be held. I said that SHINee's will be on May 2012 and... SS4 Indonesia.... will be on April 28th - 29th 2012. You know, April 28th is my birthday. That's what makes me really sad.

They said that I CAN'T prove myself as a fans. Well, I am really mad and super upset and angry about what they said.

I asked to my parents if I could watch them but as what I've expected, they refused.
I am not a lucky fangirl because I don't have enough money to buy the ticket. I know that maybe these concert will be my last chance but... yeah, I guess... I really can't watch them LIVE by myself.

My friends laugh at me, and unfortunately I can't deny their laugh.
Well, maybe I AM too hyper of being a fangirl but.. I don't know. I just feel a kind of joy that I can't find it anywhere. I am PROUD of being a fangirl; even though I can't be a part of those oceans in the concert.

I am proud of being a SHAWOL. 
I am proud of being an ELF.

I believe that someday I can be there, too.
Soon.