Is that called a friend??

There's a friend of mine, and he's a boy. I've just too tired of him.

Doesn't he remember who's the one who always be there for him when he's damn suffering?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always take care of him?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always run and run just only to meet him?
Doesn't he remember who's the one who always be there when he wants to share his damn problems?

Now he has a girlfriend and seems like he doesn't care anymore about me. Well, maybe you guys think that I'm too arrogant but... argh I don't know..

He's now in the last grade and he'll graduate this year. I know that he's now busy with the last school works and--his girlfriend of course. I've texted him a few days ago and I said that I miss him. He said that he missed me too and I said that he seemed so far from me and you know what? he didn't give me a reply.

He never online on twitter these days, and... yeah I thought that he's busy. but suddenly when I opened my facebook home......

DAMN!!!

almost of the statuses there were HIS! holy! is that what you called 'busy'???

and... sorry guys if I seemed arrogant, but as a friend, I want him to care about me like I always do. I'm not jealous or anything to his girlfriend but ... well, at least, I'm (or should I say I was?) his friend. his best friend. holy! now I don't know what am I supposed to do.

He said that he trusted me. but the fact? he trusted me only for his sadness! But when he's happy, LOL he even never notice me.

for God's sake, I hate him very much.
fri(end)

so sad of me

hello guys ^^ how are you? it's been a long time (not really, tho) for me not update this blog TT

I had such tiring days a few days ago. but what made me so tired and sad are...

• there are some rumors that Super Show 4 will be held in my country (Indonesia)
• MBLAQ, Sistar, and Boyfriend also will held a concert in my country
• and there are some rumors that KBS Music Bank World Tour will visit Indonesia too. my friends said that the artists that will come to that event are SNSD, F(x), U-Kiss, MBLAQ, T-Ara, and SHINee!

 I know you guys kinda confused about this. I should be happy, right? but... you know.. it's kinda impossible for me to watch them. even though I live in Indonesia, but I live in a city which kinda far from Jakarta. and I don't have any money to watch them. so poor of me TT

well, maybe I am not a lucky fangirl. all that I can do is only pray and believe that I'll meet, watch, and see them. I hope.. yeah, I hope.. soon.

MY NEW FANFICTION PROJECT!

my upcoming FF titled "A Chance to Change" will be released this month and now I'm still on my way to do it ^^

As what you can see on the pic, the casts are Lee Taemin, Park Jiyeon, and Choi Minho.

I'll make this FF into two different languages (Indonesian and English). For the Indonesian one, I'll post it on my facebook account and the English one, I'll post it here and in my tumblr. ^^

This week will be so tiring for me

It seems like I'll get so many homeworks this week. Holy! I got physics homeworks, arts homeworks, English homeworks, Deutcsh homeworks, and the most horrible one.... MATH EXAM ON FRIDAY!!

Hooooooly! waeee? TT
but I hope for my best laa~ wish me luck!

cheers from me ^^

oh shit

today I had a really bad day. I got a bad mood. a really bad mood!!

pleeeeeease! I wanna kick someone today! TT

Bored

I have nothing to do today. what a boring weekend.
anyway, I haven't told you about me ^^

so, my name is Dea. I have a pen-name (deahikari) and I love that name. I come from Indonesia, and I'll be 17 this year ^^
My hobbies are photography, reading, blogging, watching movies, listening to music, writing some stories, drawing manga, etc. I have many blogs that you can follow. But what I usually update are smpivsdaarni , this blog and deahikari on tumblr. feel free for you guys to contact me on those blogs or you can contact me trough my social networks accounts ^^

hello!

hello guys! this is my newest blog ^^

I was decided to make a blog with my 2nd name (deahikari). but my previous blog (smpivdaarni), I still update it ^^ well, happy reading !